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i miss him so much...

i dono whether he miss me or not...

i know i'm not anyone for him...

but i really miss him...

alot...

and it hurt so much...

if i know missing someone hurt so much...

i rather not falling in love with anyone...

but i cannot stop my heart from loving u...

i love u coz u r u...

there r no reason why i love u...

what i really know is..i love u with all my heart and i suffer now...

suffer for missing u badly..

and suffer bcoz i know i cannot have u in my life...

and it hurt me more...

how can i stop loving u?? 

u always in my mind..every day, every hours, every minutes and every second...

u r always here...with me...in my mind...

i dono how but u...

but what i really know is...i love u...and nothing can stop that...

i really hope u can feel the same way...

really...

it really hurt me, when i see ur status at fb...

ur comment, ur wall post at her fb...

u calling her "ny"...u as "b"...

i so jelesss....

u having fun there, without me...

u with someone else...and its not me...

it hurt me so bad...and sometime i feel that i so stupid...

i really miss the way we use to be before...

i miss the way u call me "ma"...u as "pa"...

sometime we change it to, "sayang".."yunkk"...

and sometime we just use "ko-aku"..."gua-lu"...=)

i really miss it....=(

why can i live my life as i use to live before i meet u?? 

my life change after i meet u...

and my life totally change after u left me...for someone else...

knowing that make my heart broken...it hurt me so much...

i really hope u can read this...

so that u will know how much i love u...

and how much i miss u...

and how much i need u in my life...

and how much i want u to be here beside me, hugging me and make me stop crying...

coz now, i crying in front of the laptop...while posting this....T_T

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p/s:: try to sleep wit broken heart....i dono whether i can sleep or not...coz i really scare to have another nightmare like yesterday....='(